JAN 1, 2019

Just Kids by Patti Smith

“We wanted, it seemed, what we already had, a lover and a friend to create with, side by side. To be loyal, yet be free.”

I am forever grateful that this was the final book I read in 2018.

This book understood me before a new year of my life started.

It allowed me to accept who I am.

Accept myself as an artist.

As a partner.

As an alone individual.

Patti understands me, even though she will never know it.

She will never know she spoke to me when I had no one to speak to.

She understood me when I did not understand any part of myself.

She comforted me by making me feel less guilty about the ways I live and internalize things.

I am forever grateful for this book.

I am forever grateful that  I can read it over again page by page.

I am forever grateful this book came into my life when I did.

And that I read it when I did.

I am grateful for the eloquent writing and for the way she made me feel less alone.

I know Patti did not write this book for me.

In fact, she wrote it for herself. And Robert.

But I can't seem to put into words how much clarity this book brought me

in a time of confusion and guilt.

I can't help but thank a friend and mentor of mine, Mary, for gifting me this book

because she knew I would love it.

Maybe she even knew I needed it.

It seems Mary understands me like Patti does.

Even if I am the only one that will ever know that.